100%

1/16/2016 12:48:00 AM

What comes to mind when you see that 100%?

It can be perfect,
succeed,
whole, or
completion.

Complete is what comes to my mind. A word that notices the existence of wholeness. Like when you're downloading your torrent or a file and then the green bar just showed 100% that means your download is finished. Or when you put the last missing puzzle pieces then the puzzle is a whole. It;s clear that wholeness is the key to feeling complete.

Nice feeling, isn't it?

That concludes feeling complete is something that we all cherish. Imagine if we feel complete of ourselves, the feeling that nothing is missing from your life, and that we have everything we need within us. It's a real happiness. Because the image of consumers being happy with the new phone or millionaires made happy when they become billionaires, the hunger for happiness still lingers.

However, the way we interpret that missing pieces is different every one of us. For me, I noticed it when I watch a rock musical Hedwig and the Angry Inch by John Cameron Mitchell two years ago and have been hyped of it ever since. It was an off-Broadway musical before turned into movie in 2001 and then a Broadway revival in 2014 played by the legend-wait-for-it-dary, Neil Patrick Harris.

The Origin of Love symbol in Hedwig and the Angry Inch based on Plato's Symposium.
This is the answer to every interview that I did when they asked about my favorite film or musical, Hedwig and the Angry Inch. It's a complex and long story that someday I'll write another post just reviewing this musical, but long story short it's a story about a drag rock and roll queen who got botched in a sexual operation. But wait, the story is much more than a drag queen journey. It's a universal story about love and acceptance.

We all struggle towards feeling whole. And to find the other half, the missing pieces, we may think of finding someone that can complete us with love, a partner. That’s why sometimes we all are so desperate to find that significant other, to find that which is missing from our lives in another, or in a mirror reflected back at us. I'm not going to say that thought is a nonsense. But if we hang onto things or someone to feel complete, we’re actually saddling ourselves with more stories of incompleteness. Like when we don't have that thing, we don't know what we'll do.

The bitter truth is that we feel complete when we accept ourselves as a whole, as we truly are. Not once again holding back who we are. Then love ourselves every pieces of it. Don't depend it on a thing or someone else. We can change for the better self, but don't ever change for anyone especially just to impress them.

That's what I've been telling myself ever since I watched the musical. So, I thank John Cameron Mitchell for bazillion of times, writing an inspiring rock musical that shook the matter which everyone can relate to. This is the finale number that tied up the entire story sung by John Cameron Mitchell himself on the movie. A song which declares that Hedwig is now whole, healed, artistically and spiritually.


"Breathe, feel, love, give, free
Know in your soul
Like your blood knows the way
From your heart to your brain
Knows that you're whole.

And you're shining, like the brightest star 
A transmission on the midnight radio 
And you're spinnin' like a forty-five 
Ballerina dancing to your rock and roll "

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